Are you sure?

I’ve heard that question several times since I starting telling people I was going to adopt again.  I started thinking about going back before I even left China two and a half years ago.  There was never any doubt in my mind that I’d do it again, it was just a matter of when. 

When I brought TK home, I really thought I’d be starting the paperwork again within about a year.  However, it never felt like the right time.  Whenever I thought about getting started, something would happen to make me wait.  I think it was God’s way of telling me it wasn’t time yet.  Now everything seems to be falling into place and it feels right.    

I started this adoption expecting that it will be a year or longer before I bring a child home.  That will give me time to consider what our daily life will be like with another little one in the family and also to get TK used to the idea of having a brother or sister.  I know we’re ready, but I also know it won’t be easy for any of us so I don’t want to rush.  TK has had me to himself for almost three years and I don’t expect him to start sharing easily.  It was several months before TK and I settled in after he came home and adding another child could really set him back.  There were many tantrums, tears and struggles before we got to where we are now.  It’s a little scary to think about doing it again, but I know it’s worth it.  The transition could be harder than it was with TK or it could be easier.  I’m not the first single person to have more than one child.  It’s an adjustment whether you adopt or give birth.  I can’t let fear of the unknown stop me from moving forward.  

So, yes, I am sure.

“Fear is temporary, regret is forever.” - Unknown